Forward written in hindsight: This was written as a "stream of consciousness" and as such is kinda word salad in places. If any are curious I will elaborate on anything. Thank you for your attention. All my love.
No, I guess it wouldn't seem that way on the surface. Here is my understanding of it though, people, including myself, have and are undergoing periods of great personal upheavals and strife. There is much confusion and seeking. This has always been the case but has been seemingly accelerating for the past two decades. My desire is to see all souls find their center, held in the arms of the all loving absolute. I trust that as I devote myself to becoming everything I can be, that I will continue to be shown signs and have encounters that assist me in expanding and solidifying my commitment to see the total and complete liberation of all sentient beings, including all of my past and future incarnations.
I have discovered on my path that suffering is one of the greatest catalysts to self-awareness. It motivates us to seek outside of what we have come to know ourselves to be... some way to end the suffering. We do many things to attempt this, many seek forms of escape, myself included, drugs, sex, music, movies, politics, etc. The only solution I have found that works is going within, deep in meditation to that point where all things are in unison, the unmanifest void, pure awareness, infinite potential.
From that cradle of being, the first cause moved the infinite deep into motion... why? This remains yet a mystery to me. I can get as far back as the moment awareness became aware that it was aware... this moment seems to be repeated all the time as complexity and experience, the first time I became aware I was aware was when I was 7, before that it was as if I was in a dream. That lucidity wasn't pure awareness though, I became aware that I was a being that was having an experience, very odd... I've collected and learned all these things that have been passed to me from my parents, society, culture, etc... but what IS awareness.. what IS consciousness? It seemed to me that the entire world was insane. People doing things they didn't want to do in support of some nebulous system that I to this day have not been able to fully define for myself... why are we doing what we are doing? To end our collective suffering? Our collective fear of god and death?
I feel this place is a prison because the inhabitants don't know what they are doing to uphold the prison. I want to see the prison disassembled, and that can be accomplished in several ways, one of them being that everyone that chooses to walk a path of fear, where they are constantly scheming and using cunning marketing and psychological tools to convince others to do things against those other's best interest but only serves to benefit the manipulators, then those individuals should just go. We don't want that kind of behavior present anymore, we've experienced enough of it. It is now time to nurture and consolidate what we've become. It's time for the feminine to return. It's time for us to come together as a global population, not under any central totalitarian entity, but as sovereign integrals, I AM. WE ARE.
I know there is manipulation happening because I engaged heavily with it in the past. It is easy to convince others to do what you want them to do, especially with the kind of social conditioning most of us have endured in our youth.
I want nothing less that you and everyone else on the planet to choose to be here in support of ALL life. Any behavior and activity that threatens that should be met with the "severity of god". As such, I don't feel it is any individual's job to seek vengeance against anything, those things should be left to karma, but one does need to take full responsibility for one's own thoughts, feelings, and actions and realize we never encounter or experience anything that is not a reflection of us on some level.
As it stands though, I still want to exist on a planet that has a lot less humans... and I think many humans here currently, don't want to remain, and they will be leaving. If there ends up being billions that remain, perhaps I'll change my mind about staying... but we'll get to that when we get to it. As things are, everything is progressing according to my own personal intentions for the kind of world I wish to see. And I am pouring the totality of my being in accordance with universal law and being unconditionally loving to myself and accepting that I am more than worthy to receive and share and be a part of a vibrant, healthy, social collective.
Thank you so much for providing me with the catalyst for sharing this. You have my sincerest gratitude.