@Tazz
"I was wondering if you could tell me more about that symbolic picture you created, the 7 roles you talked about"

The circles I mentioned are not limited to 7 members. I chose that number because of the memory that the roles within a circle represent certain abilities or qualities, so I linked it the the colors of the 7 chakras. It feels somehow right, as every chakra stands for a different quality. For example, the heart chakra is linked to the color green, and one (or more) circle member(s) would represent the heart chakra, thus being responsible for "heart matters" within that circle.

If you know want to ask what "heart matters" are... it's like a mediator who is responsible for dispute settlement and counseling regarding emotional balance.

I don't know wether the system I remember is based on the chakras or not. Maybe memories and imagination got mixed up. But the chakra qualities are very fitting to describe how it worked in principle.

Manuel that reminded me of the Force Priestesses in star wars the clone wars and also an hypnose session i believe from Alba Weinman where one of her clients had described some of that i believe, although can't remember what session was.

@Artur Faria
I've seen that session, but if I remember correctly, it was not by Alba Weinman. In the video, an older lady sitting in a chair described energy beings without bodies, communicating through vibration, having a society that consists of these circles. Hearing her description actually "unlocked" that memory inside me, because what she described sounded so familiar to me. But I'm not sure about the energy beings without bodies. Where I came from, technology was a thing.

But these are not clear memories, and it's totally possible that things got mixed up over time. It's also possible that the society I remember had a similar structure and the lady in the hypnosis session, while speaking about other beings, reminded me coincidentally.

For me i remember it was Alba session just don't remember which session, but that's my reflection after reading your memory, the connections i made because of that, it had things that resonate with it, then you experienced that session that unlocked some memory's on you and now im wondering if the session i saw wouldn't unlock even more things if you saw it?! like adding up more to it. I'll try and see if i can remember/find it if you want me too.

For me for much of my life I had this vision of books I want to write about. I assumed it's all fiction. But I found it frustrating having to try and think of a storyline, and try to make it interesting and try to market it. I didn't care, all I want to do is write it. And I wasn't interested in creative ideas to make it more compelling. I just want to write it exactly as it is in my mind. The more I think about it, the more it sounds like something I want to record accurately based on memory rather than something I'm just trying to make for the sake of intrigue.

I never published a damn thing. At least not formally. I wrote a million things online but I've had no order to it. Still, while having no order, I seem to remember the same details over and over when I repeat the information years later.

So I remember this species that were reptiloid but not with slits in their eyes, regular human-like pupils. Their body shape was pear-like / penguin-like. Mainly endothermic. The only reptiloid aspect was the skin is a bit more scaley than human and are largely shades of green with spots and gradients of hughes of all sorts. A multitude of crystals sprout from the top of the head the same way that bone does. It's a naturally forming light-emitting diode. They're small. As they grow they can modulate the light very finely so that it can give off all kinds of variances. They can act as emitters and receivers, with a retina at the base. They had machinery that can be placed to make digital algorithms to interact with the light. It's like learning to type with your fingers. This of course pales in comparison to remote viewing but seemed to have a function on a digital platform. So much of this was likely enginered not just evolved.

Their pear-like bodies were built so they could sleep kind of sitting. Like that principal of a pin that always stays up because of the bottom-heavy weight.

A lot of the biology is very specific. Sexual reproduction, digestion and elimination, symbiosis with plants that they likely engineered that way. Lots of specific things about their politics and culture. But there's lots of holes in my knowledge. So I fill in gaps and then get stuck and go "that part I have no idea." Funny enough, I don't try to think of some way to fill the gaps, I just wait until I think I have the right memory, if it ever comes up.

I've been trying to produce this artificial language which includes a number system. I feel like this insane pull to produce it like it absolutely has to be done. And I don't even know what makes it "right" but I draw the characters and they either seem right or they don't. As much as I think I'm creating this just to make something sort of interesting, I can't help but think this is a memory from long ago that I'm trying to resurface.

So whatever I'll put it here. It's still just cheap drawings but I'll put it up. This is a number system. I have symbosl 0 through 9, for a base-10 number system but I believe it's actually for base 12, not important right now. You'll notice that the points on the symbols (the endpoints and intersections, as shown with the red dots) are the same as the number that the symbol represents.

Ain't it interesting that the memory wipe doesn't actually delete the memory? It's somehow suppressing it, and we can heal that.

"You'll notice that the points on the symbols (...) are the same as the number that the symbol represents."

Although I like this idea because it's logical, I don't seem to have an emotional connection to the symbols you've drawn. Except for the letter A standing for 7, but that could stem from my emotional connection to the number 7 and A being a symbol I know now.

The circle standing for 0 always felt strange to me.

I'm playing with the idea of creating a database/wiki where we can collect resurfacing memories as well as RV data, so people can compare it.

Yes, I think such a sort of wiki is worth pursuing. I will definetely post into it if you create such a platform.

So I want to revisit this because I'm struggling with something.

The "entire civilization" that I feel I remember is so vast and complicated that every time I go to try to write it out I get lost and I don't know where to start. Maybe this will help me. I would like if anyone would choose one of the following topics and I'll start to elaborate.

*Mating

*Physiology (just the head to toe)

*Physiology ("antennas")

*Location in space (no pinpoint accuracy, just some things about that region)

*The encounter with the 4-dimensionals

*Toileting - yeah I know, why is this a topic, but it's there.

*Transportation

@Tazz

Regarding physiology, what do you mean by "antennas"?

So I think of the antennas of a typical.cartoon alien. This is where they're located on the head. But they're not antennas. They're very slight protrusions, and they're crystalline. Like quartz. They naturally grow with the body, I don't know if it's some kind of mineral deposit or carbon or silica but it's clear in nature. It emits and receives light. Nothing spectacular. They're able to modulate the frequency and colour at will. They use this like a digital signal. Think like how you use your hands to type on a keyboard. You've learned over years to make your hands operate a keyboard to, in essence, turn your thoughts into a digital signal. They use these protrusions in the same way, modulating a frequency, emitted to a transceiver. It's essentially li-fi technology. But the protrusion in the head is purely biological (well, maybe due to genetic engineering, but not a cranial implant). The transceiver is technological. Different companies sell different things that pick up the light modulations to turn it into a signal. Some are like big helmets, some just lightly sit over the head like a headband. I don't know if they use this in tandem with psychic messages and vocalizations but these protrusions are sort of "antennas" in that they transmit and receive signals by picking up light and emitting light.

I wonder wether these antennas played a role when they encountered the "4-dimensionals". How were they able to "see" them?

*The encounter with the 4-dimensionals"
i feel that is more about the energy of "your self" that is needed to connect/remember that then triggers the other perceptions. Hence the encounter would help with that.