At the current time on earth bc it is so 50/50 if I died tmrw I’d pass on coming back here

i simply won't answer when spirits/entites telepathically ask me questions, that they, as i found to be obvious, already know, but are, as i found out, using, to try to trick people with.

the way that individual asked you, and how he was 'just making sure' really smacked of a manipulator.

my reason is this:

i am very wary and leery, after so many experiences i have had, and i just won't trust anyone anymore, until they first prove to me, literally, 100%, flawlessly, that they are objectively never out to do me any form of harm, ever, on any plane or timeline, or even outside of time, in literally any way, and that they literally won't ever have any loopholes to weasle with....

Hi Natalie

Natalie said: At the current time on earth bc it is so 50/50 if I died tmrw I’d pass on coming back here

Understandable. Where do you think you would go next or would you wait.
Hypothetically, If Earth was free and safe but left in a sh*t-fight mess do you feel Earth would be worth coming back and contributing to then?

Hi moi
Maybe I should have elaborated more, and stated more clearly, that this was not confrontational or creepy - it was just unexpected - I was safe - and it was an unthreatening conversation with the male subject in a Remote Viewing session. Hesitating and having thoughts are expressive narrative and in part, explain my process.

moi said: the way that individual asked you, and how he was 'just making sure' really smacked of a manipulator.

I would like to assure you and allay your concerns, because I understand that the way I have short form written the post, it may seem as if I was unfamiliar with the subject energy, which I was not. The interaction was said without malice, manipulation or alternative agenda.
I appreciate your thoughts and respect your healthy sense of trust in these matters too. Yes, I agree, we need to be aware.

that is good. you obviously have your head on straight.

Hi Christopher
A Stayer. Do you feel you have always known that you will stay or do you feel that you have come to that conclusion during your present life and experiences?
The reason I ask is a little more complicated but do you think you are purposefully here at this time because you knew fore-birth that this planetary time, with all its earthly going-on's, would evolve and be manifested prior to this incarnation, and you would be here to be part of the experience, and beyond it? Or do you think something else, have other reasonings - maybe you could put into words.
Why do you choose to stay if you were given the option to also leave?

I choose to stay because I want to see what happens next. And I am infinitely powerful and so have much that I can offer to humans when they are ready to receive.

https://twitter.com/ReconditeDeity/status/1463145869939810318

The following is a narrative about what I went through on 8/9/2019, from about 2PM EST - 11:30PM EST.

I felt like the Great Malevolent Force had won. I was going to surrender to it.

I had planned on killing myself. Suicide via hanging. I took my backpack with my hammock, bug net, under-quilt etc. and found a nice secluded place to set up between two trees. And a smaller one nearby where I hung the noose. I then took some drugs. Drugs that anesthetized my senses and dulled my memories. I walked and pondered my life up to this point. The life of memories of the human I seem to be. I pondered about the fragments of other lives that I can only access through my imagination. Part of me knew what I was in for I think... now, looking back, part of me feels that I had dreamed about and was shown previews of the experience I was about to have. I'm not sure my conscious mind was aware of my impending death and subsequent rebirth. I yelled out to her, the woods, the moon, HER... I cried out that this whole human journey is too much. The drugs were kicking in... I took quite a bit. More than I'd had in the past but not too much that I felt unsure of what to expect. The only difference this time was that I was willing to die... I wasn't only open and willing, I was committed to the act. I started dreaming while wide awake. I was immersed in a blended world of outer forest, trees, earth, sky, and the world of inner meaning and archetype that began to merge and blend.

I wandered. I lost track of my personal sense of identity. The world became unrecognizable. I became unrecognizable. I lost all awareness. It was dark. I was aware of the darkness. I was then aware of myself. The world of form and senses came rushing back in a flurry of memory and meaning. I had glimpses of what I had done to myself. I can't fully put words to everything I experienced. I've never been able to. Not really... I know I try to each time, but more recently for the most part I've found myself falling silent when I attempt to describe past a certain point... if you know, you know... and there's nothing to really say about it.

I returned to this specific one, the one who feels he is typing these words. The sky was now dark. I'd been in the woods for hours. I had no shoes on. I had left them at my hammock. I had no glasses on. Those had been left too. I had no idea what part of the woods I was in. I couldn't see more than faint images, mostly silhouettes of the trees against the waxing moon. The mortal fear returned to me. The adrenaline started. I was alone in the woods. Nobody knew I was out here. I came here to die. I had died and been reborn. I now needed to get out of the damn woods! I knew I had no chance of locating my camp site. I had to get back to the road and my grandparent's house.

I was still not sober. I stumbled. I fell. I got up. I stumbled again. And fell. Again and again and again. I walked through the underbrush, and through the bogs and small creeks. I fell on my knees in the mud. My bare feet and toes getting poked by sticks and rocks. I fell again. I was surrounded by knee high plants in what I took to be a small clearing in the trees. The ground was rather wet and muddy. I assumed I'd falling in one of the boggy areas that were scattered around the property. I looked up. I seemed to be surrounded by a cone of light. There were other beings around me. I could not see them or recognize them. But I could feel their presence. I knew I'd make it through this. I got up and started walking again. I climbed up a hill through pricker bushes and brambles on my hands and knees. I made it to a field. I had been going the wrong way. I needed to go back the other way through the woods to get to the house. I became an animal. I was a creature of the night. I took off through the woods again, stumbling and falling, springing back to my feet. Covered in cuts and bruises, my pants and shirt were soaked and covered in mud. I saw a light through the trees. I headed for it. I eventually emerged from the wood line. I could see the house. The utility pole lite near the driveway that I'd been moving toward. I got in our four wheel drive farm utility vehicle and went and tried to find my camp site... quickly abandoning that task because I'd been out there for 9 hours now. I drove it back to my grandparents house and then down the road to my parents house where I was able to shower and sleep.

I found my camp site this morning (8/10/2019) then. Disassembled everything and walked back out of the woods in the daylight. I wish this brief narrative description could do more justice to the profoundness I feel I got from my experience.

Christopher, I was hoping that Del would answer your post because he is the caretaker of this thread that he started, and he has a way with words. But he has been absent here for at least 2 to 3 days, and that's unusual. I hope he's ok. I feel compelled to answer your post because I sense that you are still in a very difficult situation now.

I think that you pushed or find yourself very deep in a dark tunnel. Are you still in that tunnel? Have you sought help inside or outside your family? It usually takes more than 2 years for people to recover from the type of traumatic experience that you have described in your post.

Sorry, I don't think that you are ok. And I hope you don't mind me making this suggestion; I think you need to see a competent healthcare provider so that you can get the help that you need.

Thank you for sharing this very intimate and important aspect of your life.

jc

I'd invite you to notice the dates involved here... 8/9/2019 was over two years ago. I understand your concern, but it is unnecessary. We are eternal.

If you would like to discuss anything further I'd be happy to answer questions... the only reason I shared that account of my experience is because I feel it was an appropriate answer to my decision to stay... that experience had much to do with my decision to stay... well, return and stay.

Don't worry, you'll overcome your fear of death in all forms eventually as well.

Jean-Claude, thankyou so much for your post! I am grateful that you shared your experience - I'm also very glad you have clear recall and that the memory was not taken from you, or you thought it insignificant. I think also, it is very important, and I thank you for your expressions.

I believe you have touched on an important aspect that rings true in your interpretation - I am a bit 'done' with the state of the Earthly Galaxy affairs - and its no good me whinging about spilt milk, but for me it should never have come to this, and yet here we are again, playing the same loop over and over, and yet this time the stakes are so much more. This is the last round - This is our best bet yet, I feel we have the opportunity to go beyond the brink and smash the ceiling. But in the interim ...

... where it differs slightly, in relationship to my interaction in the Viewing, for me is I think that whilst this current diversion is playing out, there are signposts to watch out for along the way as we start this transition. One of them being the lure to leave here pre-emptively - the 'Will you Go' question - coerced by agenda, strategy and promises (that will never come to fruition), humans will be invited to leave. Firstly for fun (it always starts off as a game), then for safety, and then for necessity of their own preservation, and in a flash they will not come back. Recaptured. And they will not know what they left and what they are heading towards.
It will always look as if it was their decision to leave, but that is not true. But there is no blame here - they are hypnotized in a way - and its a mess here. Its a catastrophic mess. But, what is here on earth for those who stay will be of their making - brilliant and challenging, heavy but transcendent - it's all do-able as long as we stay - stay true to our selves and stay away from the lure.
...and as I said, 'somebody's got to clean up the mess'.

Now Jean-Claude, seeing that you are still here, can I interest you in a broom or mop?

Interesting experience Jean-Claude. But don’t believe we choose to stay here. Don’t believe we wanted to come here as “Star Seeds” or “Light Workers.” We were dumped here. There isn’t even fairness in staying here. No family ties or love eternal with another and I desperately wish that were not true. I believe what I am learning despite the mind wipe, implanted memories, post hypnotic suggestions and dispositions to truth our captors implanted. I know you believe none of this. I wish I didn’t like the other 99.99% of earth’s souls who will not or can not even entertain the notion.

Hey, Larry, it's good to see you. I really mean that.

And, yes I hear you. I remember all the discussions that we had here, maybe 2 to 3 years ago after FS published the rv studies on the death traps and the prison planet. Back then, it was clear to me that I was not coming back here. It would have been pure insanity for me to consider coming back to earth after this life.

As it is, the violence and suffering on earth have always been an issue for me. And when I learned that earth is a prison planet with death traps! That was it, I was not coming back. Then, one day I asked myself AGAIN why I am here in the first place considering that I have always felt like a fish out of water, here on earth.

Well, I'm going to skip a lot of stuff about how I got the answer to the above question... And I'm just going to say that I changed my mind. I'm coming back here next time after this life.

I forgot:

"Now Jean-Claude, seeing that you are still here, can I interest you in a broom or mop?"

Well, I would not mind helping with a mop during a specific number of lifetimes, but only after they have cleaned their mess with some brooms.

There is no free lunch in the cosmos, but it's ok to make mistakes. However, it is not ok for us to refuse to learn after our mistakes, specially when we are dealing with immortals who live forever.

Hi Suzanne, a while ago, some of my posts disappeared here at FS, but I didn’t do anything about it.

Then, a couple of months ago, I contacted Courtney to get some answers after someone deleted a bloc of posts published in that thread from the specific time (ex from May 3rd to May 14th, 2021).

These posts dealt with a conversation that I had with 2 or 3 other FS members about what I ultimately learned was Scientology. I was just asking questions about this “religion” that I don’t know much about.

I felt that someone deliberately erased these posts, it was not a mistake. Courtney looked around and assured me that he did not remove these posts. And I believed him.

Then, I talked to people from Vimeo. Initially they told me that they didn’t have any record showing that they had erased these posts but they would keep looking; and, if they had removed these posts, it would be because someone had found them offensive, and filed a complaint against them. A couple of days later, Vimeo confirmed that someone had filed a complaint against these posts.

Well, I hope that your post was removed by mistake because there is nothing offensive in this thread. But again, if asking questions about Scientology threatens some people, it would not be surprising that they see devil worshipping in anything that falls outside their narrow religious belief system.

Jean Claude I removed a number of my posts at one time. Some may have reflected a Scientology belief structure but if so coincidental. I am not into Scientology or any religion. However I am learning, changing, evolving, and applying it all. Don’t like where it has taken me as similar to Courtney. However it will force me to be strong in focus, higher in vibration, more compassionate, forgiving, and loving. Must accept what I prefer was not true but part of the process.

Hey Larry, no problem. I think we are all learning, changing and adjusting the best that we can to our new environments and life circonstances. Some of these changes have been difficult, painful and certainly very unpredictable.

In fact, if someone had told me 2 years ago that I was going to post here at FS that I was coming back on earth after this tour of duty, I was going to ask him what he had in his coffee that morning. And it's funny because, some people may ask me what I had in my coffee this morning, after hearing that I have decided to come back on earth.

But I think that things are unfolding as planned. However, I must acknowledge that this universe has been very patient with me, and in more than one occasion it has saved me again myself. So, I'm very grateful for that, and a heart-felt special thanks goes to Gaia.