I have slowly over the years come to the conclusion that there is no God. After doing kundalini yoga I felt it strongly and I could name it: there is no God outside of me, I am alone, I have to take responsibility myself.
Still I have felt that there is Something, too many syncronisities, too many like-guided experiences, what I need comes to me etc.
I feel as if I have been in a child like state for most of my life, needing The God figure, like a child needs dad or mom. But that's over now. Still there IS something, I can't describe - The Force or what?