Since it started I have had trouble sleeping. I've been studying non-stop. I started meditation again after years. I feel like I can't do another day of work and have to help defeat the dark fleet. I'm a VP of IT for a web development company. What can I do? I tell everyone I know and my gf is getting sick of me talking about it. My coworkers are about to hear me because its all I can talk about. I have been spreading the word, trying to get video. Tonight I did Hanuman mantras and asked for strength and his divine power and it brought me to tears and intense joy. I can't do my job until this is over. What does a technological monk warrior do? I'm so grateful for you all.

"I can't do my job until this is over."

I know exactly how this feels like. I'm a web developer, but I can't work in that field anymore. I hate it, not because of the technology, but because of the ignorance of most people about how to use the technology.

If you are not happy anymore to be VP of IT, it's because you and your company are heading towards different directions.

I started farming, reconnecting with nature in a practical sense. It's really difficult if you're used to a certain standard of living, because you won't have as much money as before. Try to find people who do the same. Digging your own potatoes out of the ground does something with you. Sharing your potatoes with other people does even more. Look for "community supported agriculture" if you're interested.

"I feel like I can't do another day of work and have to help defeat the dark fleet."

I know, working in nature and defeating the dark fleet seem to be completely different worlds. That's because your deepest fear is that people don't need you. Let that sink in.

Now think of it this way: The good people need you to be healthy, especially in a mental sense. It's the bad people trying to navigate you into a burnout, because that way, you won't help anybody else. Getting into a healthy mindset first is crucial for everything that follows. Take your time to get there.

Here's music that will help you deal with the negative emotions. Look at the chapters in the description and try to understand where you are now. There's a reason why "The Light" comes before "The Burning":

➡️ https://odysee.com/@dreamspace:d/Burnout-Mix:7

Well I think I have gained some negative attention for my work already. Anything I can do to protect myself?

Well Tazz is a fair bit of an asshole, but I agree with your sentiments, Matt.

More I would like to say but I'm in gridlock for now.

@ Matt

As you are already utilizing meditation perhaps taking a look at Wave 1 of The Gateway Experience by Robert Monroe may offer some self empowerment for what you are experiencing. Specifically there is a technique call "REBAL" which is developing a resonant energy balloon around yourself that can be used anytime/anywhere. It is designed to keep your own energy inside, allowing the freedom to share yourself when you want and rejecting that of others that isn't in alignment with you. Try proton if you would like to reach out to me. It's a shame this forum format is quite limited and PM's are not available to members.

Binaural beats and Isochronic tones are quite good for deep meditation. I made a thread on them on this forum posting some of my faves.

I wanted to give an update here. I meditated more and am becoming more grounded. My band even brought up starting to take some hikes and doing charity work without me saying anything. My girlfriend has come around and now we are both like joyous children of light ready to do the work we were made for. I have no fear and have the armor of god. I have shed all fleshly desires and ended years of addictive abuse which I think I did to numb the reality of the world we live in. I went to lunch with co-workers and they asked me about the current situation with the drones and I told them. They all were in agreement and my boss was most interested as he is a Christian and said this was the most unique way he had seen someone come to god! I have been posting many things on social media and have had friends reach out full of love and wonder. Many want to call me or meet up. I have cried tears of joy almost every day. The universe truly is connected and full of boundless love. Thank you all for your love, support, and kind words.