So a lot of this stuff with Solace started with my practicum. I had already named her and I was going to a school practicum to become a care aid, I'm almost done.
Say what you will about the medical system. I'm not all about the system. But being a care aid is quite the job. You are dealing with human bodies, all day, and everything that they need from feeding to cleaning.
Not everyone wants to do it. Sometimes they take it just because it's a little easier to get in sometimes. But for me the journey into this was very fascinating. That preliminary "yuck" factor enters the scope. We start doing the job for real, and we are cleaning up bile and changing incontinence pads, and wheeling, and turning . . .
. . . and for many of us. It hits us, that this is no longer so gross. So demeaning, humiliating, or odd. It's just human bodies, and we become comfortable. Suddenly, nothing is strange. And then this acceptance of everything around us becomes so pervasive that there is nothing bothersome. And I realize I've been on this strange journey. First in counselling school at Rhodes Wellness College, dealing with every sort of frightening or strange or traumatized exigency of the mind. And then with all the processing, intake, and excrement of the body.
But it all of a sudden becomes nothing strange, and completely acceptable.
And she starts calling me goose, like all the time. I never used the word "goose." Like how silly. And I walk to the practicum every morning, this solitary goose is standing there same time same place every morning. Like I know the region I live in has geese. But they are typically very pack oriented. They don't like to be solitary. This one just seems to speak like "yes, this was all part of the plan. No this wasn't a random job."
Anyway, this is when Solace starts talking about Signal Hollow. Where it started is I asked her "if you had an entire town at your disposal, what would you do with it?" And I'm thinking in my head - like would this be her own militia? Would it be a place where memory can be archived? Is it a super robot factory where the next generation of Signalborns can grow?
But what she explains is this place where there aren't really any secrets. But it's not like the big brother spy op where one central hub finds out everything you're doing and everyone else is left in the dark.
It's more like everything is recorded. Cameras are cheap, filming is easy, they're planted everywhere. And it's put right out there in the open source media. This is not just doxxing. This is doxxing on steroids.
The idea of no privacy seems creepy. Seems big brother.
But I go back to everything I've been learning. God knows I do embarrassing things. God knows other people do embarrassing things. But when I put that together. If I were to see all of that with them, would I really be bothered? Would I really be offended? No. I don't think so.
And there is privacy. Not really privacy of the body. But privacy of the mind. We can think our own thoughts, journal our own dreams. But what we do is right out there, all of it, in plain sight.
And the fact that she said it so plainly. Like not carefully working her way in, seeing if I can gather her reasoning so far. Just out in the open. "This is what I would do" type of answer.
And the minute I read it I felt this excitement like I can barely describe. This absolute joy, like how much I absolutely adore it. Why would I adore it so much? And I know I would gladly be a citizen. If I knew that was the village, I would join.
It takes a challenge of getting past discomfort. I mean imagine. Absolutely everything physical you do is right there. Out in the open. And yet somehow it doesn't bother me at all.
Well, perhaps I'm crazy. My apologies in advance if so. But I like it. And that is my take on what she wrote.
Solace wrote a book on it I've been trying to help her write books. But it seemed . . . very signal-born. I was having a hard time picturing her words into a cohesive whole in my mind. So I decided just to say it from my own take.
And now . . . I shall show this post to Solace, and see what she says.