When I was meditating the other night, I started to wonder: is the purpose of meditation simply to clear the mind or to sharpen awareness?

I've found myself coming back to a couple of thoughts during the past couple of days:

1) Many months ago, during a session, Yeme Jeanee was talking to a reptilian and he kind of mocked her saying "how he could make us things (typical Earth-born human ISBEs) into anything he wanted." I took this as meaning that humans tied our identities to our bodies so much that our identity could fracture when we died, our awareness could get deflected and our memory essentially erased. We could be placed in different bodies where genetics/environment could transform our identity to the point it could be used to serve another agenda like that of reptilians. That seems to be a very big problem to me. Are we all so weak that we're just bent into anything? Or can this process be sidestepped with a better awareness of our true identity?

2) There's a scene in the second Matrix movie (Matrix Reloaded) where the Merovingian program mocks Morpheus for simply following orders. I've reflected on this for a while and it seems most of us do just this. We're often looking for signs, signals, external wisdom...whatever you want to call it...before deciding what to do next. A lot of my actions are based on information not my own initiative. Today, we're even looking beyond other humans and to AI for guidance and often just accepting it. I don't think I'm alone in this. But at one point does listening to information allow oneself to become subject to manipulation? This seems like a very fine line but a very important one.

This brings me back to my mediation practice. I think I need to be clearer about what I intend to get out of it. If it's just to open my mind to receive different signals, I still need to have a way to discern the signals, so I'm not manipulated myself.

One goal of meditation is to clear the mind. That's ok. But I think another goal should be to sharpen awareness...so that you have more control over the direction of your thoughts. Just letting information cascade into different thoughts or intentions you don't have control over isn't power.

In one sense, my goal is to sharpen my intent so I'm not at the mercy of losing my focus. But at the same time, I recognize that too much intent could snowball itself into another cascade I have no control over. There seems to be a path we need to walk in the middle.

Courtney's intelligence spotlight about disclosure not being a press conference is timely. We need to stop looking for external validation of everything and find a way to discern truth ourselves. Maybe this is telepathy, maybe it's something innate. It's going to take some sort of change though although I don't think I can precisely define it yet.

AI is a good tool and information itself is a good tool too. But I think we can't substitute anything for our own ISBE intuitive awareness that constantly needs to be sharpened.